Monday, March 18, 2013

My opionion about Truth and Opinion


   Being in remission takes a lot of awareness. We need to pare our lives down to the basics in physical, spiritual, emotional, and intellectual arenas. Why? Simple makes it difficult for relapse to hide. My addictive brain likes to make the world really complicated. That gives it better odds on being in control, confusion will lead to lack of direction.

Today I want to clarify Truth.

I was asked a question earlier today concerning the concept of Truth. My friend simply asked me what I thought the "Truth" was? Here was my answer.

I close my eyes. Take a deep breath. And. Open my eyes. What is in front of me is the Truth. My action in the moment is the Truth. Then my brain kicks in and starts telling me stories about what's in front of me, that's Opinion. Then my actions start to respond to my opinion that's me being lost.

Truth is not a "Something." It's not like a rock or a cow or a book or a Tibetan Snow Leopard. You can't take a picture of it, or sculpt it, or make it a God, or "find it" somewhere on a mountain. It's a verb.You Truth like you would run or drive, dive, breath, or sing. Truth is a movement in time right now. Truth is not the song, it's the singing.

If I a fighting for my life, that is theTruth. If I am making love, that is the Truth. Washing dishes = Truth.
Watching grass grow = Truth. Listening to music = Truth. Painting a picture = Truth. (not the picture, just the act of painting!)

Doing = Truth

Maybe Truthing can be a new word. I am in the action of Truthing. (My spell check really hates this.)

This is not a position that anxious people like to take. Or people who think that their Opinion is the Truth. Like you can identify Truth, lock it up, and when anyone wants to see it you unlock your box of Truth, haul it out and exhibit it to them.

Politicians, Lawyers, so called Spiritual leaders, Marketing engineers, in fact almost any authority figure will try to convince you that they "know" the Truth.

Except they can't really define it. You can describe running but to "know" running you have to be doing it.

I ask: How can something defined as Truth be used to kill other peoples families to make it true? I mean it's that bad. We literally kill each other over what we perceive as True politics, religions, philosophy, and yes stuff like Oil. Go figure.

What we are really killing each other over is the Opinion of the Truth. Opinions seem to encourage the building of castles. We build walls of Opinions around ourselves supposedly to protect the Truth in the middle. And. We kill each other to prove the point. Except there is nothing there in the middle.

So Truth is a verb.
Opinion is a position. ( I wish I could get rid of opinion, but it's sticky and embedded, the good news is that it melts away in Truthing.)

So I am going to keep Truthing every second, I like the way it makes me feel. And. In my remission avoid opinion and avoid trying to imply that I "know" the truth.
(Anyway  that's my opinion!!)

Love you, Bryan

Sunday, March 17, 2013



I am bulimic in remission. 
A drug and alcohol addict in remission.
A people pleaser in remission. 
A consumer in remission.
I am re-entering contact with humans because we all have something to offer.
There is a higher source of knowing.
And humans have good hearts.

Do you know why all this exists for me?

Because I choose to believe.

I don't need to prove any of this to anyone. I used to think that somehow I needed to construct, prove and maybe defend a position before I could believe in it. Now, more than ever in my life, I just choose to believe. 

Looking back in history, mine and the planet's, I realized that most anyone who has made a difference has made the choice to believe in something.

Now you may say "Shit, that's the problem, all these different people and all the belief systems and no one is able to get along! It's why the world sucks."

There is nothing to prove to anyone. I don't have to become embroiled in proving anything. Silence really is golden when it comes to what I choose to believe in. It isn't that we choose to believe, it's that we are so insecure that we need to convince others to believe in the same thing in order to feel confident about ourselves. I don't have a "Castle of beliefs." surrounded by a moat anymore. I choose to believe I don't need one.

What I choose to believe in is my choice. Why would I want to defend it?

Choosing to believe is different than just believing. We believe in lots of stuff because we are conditioned to believe in it. We never made the choice, we just had it implanted when we were young by other people who had it implanted when they were young and so on for thousands of years.

Yesterday I met some friends to have coffee. As I sat and listened the conversation turned into an argument concerning martial arts and which one was the "Best." And as usual everyone was defending their "'Castle of beliefs." One of my friends asked me what I thought. I told her the "Best" martial art is the one you train in.
My "belief" is that you choose a martial art you are comfortable with and train. That's it.

 Everyone went back to arguing.

What we choose to believe in reflects the quality of our lives. Notice that I am reflecting the idea of choice, again not the ingrained belief systems that society fertilized us with, but what we made choices about believing. (Fertilize was a precise choice of words.)

You can choose to believe in your remission.
You can choose to believe in your success.
You can choose to believe in today and tomorrow.
You can choose to believe you belong here.
You can choose to believe in love.
You can choose to believe in caring.
You can choose to believe in compassion.

You can choose to believe in yourself, your uniqueness, your abilities, your path, your heart, mind, and take that belief in to your awareness and  soar.

Query: What in you life do you choose to believe in?

Love, Bryan