Cancer/Bulimia/Recovery and the Wall

Hi

Recently I had someone cut me out of their life.

Period.

No contact, no response, no explanation, no anything.

Just a fuck you, .period

It hurts and I admit I really hate them for that.

But.

I also realized how fake this all is.

And thank you Sharon.

So called caring about each other.

We don't really care do we?

I sat with a Mom who lost her three year old to cancer.

And listened to her talk on the phone.

It's over she said.

And

She has to get on with her life.

OK.

I will always love anyone I said "love" to.

And

I would be at your back if you needed me.

Be

Very careful with you words.

Don't lie OK?

We try to bridge the gap that cannot be bridged.

We call it love,

Don't ever lie to me about loving.

It may be the illusion that keeps me alive.

I am going to say this because I mean it..

Love, Bryan

Remission and Noise and Cancer and Addiction

Hi.

This probably won't be a popular view.

I hate noise.

People just make noise all the time.

It's like the birdhouse at a Zoo.

Endless noise about.

Politics

Sports

Weather

Who did what to who

Movies

Fucking TV

What "I" did today or yesterday.

Who killed who today.

It all fucking opinion.

Spending time in a cancer ward will change noise into meaning.

Spending time with HIV positive people will change noise into meaning.

Spending time in an animal rescue shelter will change noise into meaning.

Family

Love

Friends

Caring

Fear

Anger/Fear

We make so much noise.

If we are going to make noise.

Why not make it meaningful?

It's not real deep here on the planet earth.

Love, Bryan